where have I been?

So I haven't written anything in a long time because I have been somewhat busy. I gradumated from law school and have been studying like a robot for the entire summer. I have exactly 3 days left until the bar exam. I can't wait. Soon it will all be over and I can get my life back. At least until February when I can will have to take the exam again. People are freaking out. I know people that are on prescription sleep pills. I know people (class validictorian) that are on anti-anxiety medicine. Its bizzare. On a much more horrible note, my best friends brother committed suicide last weekend, and the funeral was yesterday. From what I hear, my friend is holding up surprisingly well. Im not sure if that is good or bad though. He is going to need some therapy eventually and I hope he gets it. I know if that sort of thing happened to me I would probably think I was in no need of therapy...wrong. He is, after all, the one who found his brother. I cant imagine walking in and finding your brother like that. My heart goes out to him. Strangely, I do not feel bad for his brother, mostly because he did it to himself. It is sad that it happened, as he was a very nice guy, but when people do those things to themselves I have trouble feeling any sympathy for them. After all, my friend and his family were the ones left to clean up the mess and deal with the tragedy.